Wow... Nowadays become so guai... Never go crazy liao... Smartha, Steph an Shella are too close so I dun really have much time with Smartha anymore... Anyways... Now hanging out with Ariel and Geraldine... Today Geraldine got so-called scolded by Mr Ong... But not that much of a scolding luhh... Just say that he need to tell her wad he told Yee Suan... Now our OH MY GERALDINE is finally on the same level as TAUSUAN... And her 3 TAUSUAN TAKEAWAY is really hurting my tummy man ! ... Nvm... Keep thinking about the neh-neh-neh song from Holland Village on Channel 8 last time... And Jesse McCartneh... Wah... So many nah sia... Hahaz... Anyway... I doing my Home Econs Coursework now... Diaoz... Dunno wad to cook also... Hahaz... I think I cooking fried rice... Hahaz... So funny meh ? Why I laughing... ? Anyway... I now wanna sleep liao... So tired sia... After all the History Remedial... Bye Bye...

... Just came back from the Cathay Cinemas in AMK Hub... I went to watch the newest romantic comedy " Hamsome Suit " !! So nice and funny sia !! Hahazz... Dunno why I dun really think that the main actor is ugly lehh... He ok ok wad... Fat fat one oso quite cute... But nowadays ... Even fat fat ones are evil... Hehezz... Just like our dear Ronald and KaeWen...

The movie taught us not to judge ppl by their looks... But wad they are inside... Then I thought of our dear old Jac... Hahaz... I did judge her by her looks but I started to hate her because she said those stuff that I dun wanna mention... Anyway... Do you guys think that I should be friends with her?? Should I ? Maybe but ya... Just give me some advise on my cbox... Of course she'll agree that I have to be her friend but if its that situation... She will only have one friend in this class... I dunno... Seems that everyone hates her now... And more are hating me these days... Maybe I'm too vulgar... Well I should go back to normal... I have been wanting to become more erm.. Gangster like since P5 or sth but I'm still tomboyish so ya I can't change that... I shall watch what I'm talking from now on... Hehezz... Please remind me if I said something vulgar for fun again... But will you guys be suprised if I really go back to normal ?? Wait... Never mind... I'll try to change back..

Anyway, about the emo emo message I posted just now... Its not for Steph okay... Please dun get the wrong idea.. My friend who is A and theres B and C... And I'm D !! Hehez... I love this letter... But most words that are not so good start with the letter D lehhs... Like Dinosaur or Donkey or Damn it or Darn it or D-... Neve mind ... I'm running out of ideas... Hey ... I recently have my eyeslids twitching on my left eye... Something bad is gonna happen to me... Oh god.. Wonder wads gonna happen now... haix.... So... Never mind... I shall mind my words... Anyway... I need to take my shower and do my homework... Byes ... For now.. !!

hehezz... Dun mind me... I just wanna write something... In Chinese... To push out all my feelings and this is also for my dearest friend... Hehezz :
" 幸福。。 到底什么是真正的幸福。。 对我来说。。 就是跟一个人一天到晚都在吵架， 但过了一天再看到他时，却是开心地对着他微笑。。 幸福。。 也是当我们什么都没有了的时候，但他却还在我的身旁照顾我，关心我。。 幸福。。 从不是一个人的事。。 因为没有了另一半就没有幸福。。 另一半的存在，另一半的温暖，另一半的肩膀，都是幸福的起点。。 因为，另一半的存在让我们找到爱我们的人，另一半的温暖让我们在把头放在他的胸口时让我们觉得很安心也很温暖。。最后，另一半的肩膀，在我们需要他的时候，让我们依靠，让我们借一下大哭一场。。
像知名歌手，方大同的歌里面写着，“ 能找到爱，幸福的人能不能躲起来，正在，寂寞的人能不能站起来”。。 每次都是幸福的人再让别人知道他们很幸福快乐。。 但，他们有没有想过，他们真的有那么幸福吗？ 他们也有没有想过寂寞的人的感受？站在旁边的寂寞人士，跟何况是爱着那个人但他却有了别人，站在那里看着，心当然会痛。。
幸福也有另一种。。 那就是帮你爱的人去给他爱的人他的幸福。。有人会说这样很笨很蠢。。 但我觉得，我就是得不到他的幸福，所以我才希望他别像我这样，去为他的爱，付出一份努力和勇敢。。
幸福。。 到底什么是真正的幸福。。 对我来说。。幸福是要自己去找的。。除非是你爱他但他却喜欢别人，去帮他的话，自己会伤心但看到他开心，才是我的幸福。。” Hehezz... Its in Chinese by the way... I scared some of your computers can't see Chinese ... But never ... Its just for me to write to my dear friend and myself too... ^_^ I was once like that... I don't know why ... But its better for me to be alone now with my friends so , my dearest friend that I am referring to right now... You know who you are !! So ya... Give me a call when you see this ... Hehezz... I know you will ...

Today went out with Cai Peng ( Primary School Friend ) and firstly went to eat at MOS Burger at J8... Then we saw Samantha , Steph and mr Birthday Boy, Zaiver.. Then when Cai PEng saw him she told me that he looks quite nice except that he is too tall for her... Then I told her he have stead liao... Then she oh... Then we start to chat about Show Luo... ( again ) ... Hahaz... Anyway... Bought the new " Colour " Magazine... With his big face on the cover page... Looking adorable... Hehezz... ANyway... Then we went to AMK Hub to see this movie called " Love " ; 《爱到底》then when we finally got up to the front of the queue... We realised that we did not have enough money... Walao... 2 fucking tickets to watch 1 fucking movie at a fucking bitchy Cathay Cinema need 10 dollars and we are student somemore dun give discount... Haix... Nvm... The movie quite touching and funny... And I really recommand this to our dearest Steph and Birthday Boy to enjoy their time in the cinema while watching this romantic and funny movie... But the movie was quite meaningless though... If you really watch it...

Anyway... Came back home and showered and read my book... Becoming very emo... Then I start to write stuff like :
" 爱是什么？ 能让我们为它而疯狂，能让我们为它而牺牲。。。 当爱来到了一个段落。。 我们都只能伤心的离开彼此的世界。。 但好过没被人爱过。。 或是爱上有了爱人的人。。 每次谈恋爱，大多数都是女人吃亏。。都是我们留着眼泪的往前走。。但因为有了回忆，因为曾幸福过，所以我们都觉得一切都值得。。” If your computer does not read Chinese ... I advise you people to go get the software... Your Chinese will really improve... Anyway... I am a point where I'm confused.. I don't know why but I'm starting to be scared of those three people I mentioned just now infront... Like I see them then I like want to go away but sometimes will still like see them and like go up to them and " HI ! " ... I siao one ... I know...

Now those three people... Especially the little couple have their own things to do... Like ya'know... What couples do ? I don't know... Still... I really wish them all the best lah... They must erm... Bai tou xie lao... HaHaz.... Anyway... Now I wanna sleep liao... 2moro still need to do work and write finish song... Byez...

Another day , another problem... How many people must bugg me to death ?? But still I had one of the best PCCG lessons ever ! So interesting sia... We were doing on the title bullying and Jac was pooping out everything about me but she didn't say it was me lah... Then she kept looking back at me with the " chey ! " face and the " I'm gonna tell on you ! " face ... Diaozz.... I was telling Geraldine and we were like talking during class as the Mr Lim was talking... Then after what she said... I shoot her back " Mr Lim ... What if hor... Some people like talk ... " then I remembered I said something like " she very rich hor... Then her father very big car cokmpany hor... " then Jac put her ear at my direction " then now she very close hor... The ear very big hor... " then the class laughed a little" then she has a very cute dog hor... * laughs * Aiya.. She just talk then never go in " here " one hor... " then I continued complaining ... dot-dot-dot...

It was funny man ! But not so funny anymore... Talking about bullying lah... The Jac is one who should have zip her mouth in the first place but of course , I'm at wrong too because I shoto back at her... I know its wrong but its kinda fun when its like when everyone is looking and when you know you comfirm can win her one... Only sometimes lah... Then like ... It looks like I'm getting attention but ya... I feel that its fun and she also say some stuff that she doesn't let me know like when she passes some craps of paper to Kurtrina during class... Oh ya ... I just want to say a big SORRY TO KURTRINA FOR MAKING YOU SO VEXED OVER ME AND JAC... I KNOW THAT SHE IS BUGGING YOU ABOUT ME FOR SOME REASON SO YA... I'M SORRY

Okay then I came back home and watched TV... The whole day and just now when my brother came home... A cockroach came into my house !! I could hear my mother screaming her guts out like " AH!! " then I went out and asked what happen then she say theres a cockroach and she is scared to whack it... I also... Don't look at me ! Anyway... My brave mother went to whack it in the end and she " saved the day "... Hahazz... But luckly we had her or we don't know what to do with the little pest...

And I just saw Jac's blog... (again) She told me that I am restricted from her blog bla bla bla... I don't really care but seriously JUST DON'T GO AND BUGG KURTRINA... SHE JUST WANT TO MIND HER OWN BUSSINESS OKAY ? SO WHY CAN'T YOU? AND STOP ASKING HER ABOUT ME.. IF YOU WANT TO KNOW ANYTHING... I HAVE A 24/7 HOTLINE... CALL ME ANYTIME ... IF ITS TOO LATE ... I KNOW THAT YOU WON'T BE THAT RETARDED TO CALL ME WHEN YOU ARE SLEEPING SO YA... IF THERES ANYTHING THAT YOU SUSPECT ABOUT ME... COME AND FIND ME... I'LL TELL YOU.. AND MY 24/7 HOTLINE MAY NOT BE AVAILABLE IF MY CELLPHONE IS DEAD SO YA.. This is my principle... If you mess with me... I'll mess with you... If you go and bugg my friends for your own purposes that are seriously extra... I rather you come and bugg me instead 'cause the people around me are more important to me then me getting irritated sometimes... Like Kurtrina... She can really get very good results but ya... I am always bugging her sometimes so now this is the result that she need to move far far away to study... Anyway... I can't stop what she's doin so ya... I'll MMOB... (another form of MYOB)

Now I'm doing my homework... Assessment book for Chinese Chapter 8 & 11 ... Haizz... So sian.. I wanna sleep lah.. Or I could just look at my Luo Zhi Xiang to wake myself up...? Okay... Let that be it... I need to go now darlings... And hey ... must tagg arh !! BB

Hi again... Sorry that my intro is always the same...

Today was quite interesting and I got my specs already !! Hehezz.. Anyway... I look like Miss Tew Li Li... Aiya... She also quite pretty so ya... I'm so proud !!

Anyway... After school I went to take my specs... Gave $50 digged out of my piggy bank to the kind lady at the counter and I went lost in the HDB flats around ANK Ave 10... Then I slowly went to find the bustop and went home on bus 132... Went home and talk to my mom about the ghosty email I got... And she bravely told me to show it to her... And I did !! Hurray for me !! Okay... Then I told her to off it and I went back to my blog to see whats going on... Then I'm talking to Smartha now... She was laughing her ass out ( no offence ... ^_^ ) when we were talking about some stuff just now... Maybe later I going out with my mom to AMK Hub to eat my dinner so if anyone of you see me at AMK Hub .... MUST REMEMBER TO CALL ME OKAY ?!?!

Okay ... Bye for now... Oh and foo xian ... Heres my dogs pic...

... Lets rewind to the starting of the day ...

I woke up with a smile on my face as I dreamt about ... You know... SHOW LUO!!! 罗志祥!!! ARH !!! SO SHUAI RIGHT ?!?! Never mind that... Anyway... I was still quite sleepy so I went infront of my door and suddenly bang my head against it... I remembered all this as I tried to rewind everything today... And I really think that the bump on my head is really a ba-la-ku... So pain sia... Anyway... Then the really reason why I thought it really was a ba-la-ku is because I turned to my right and walked towards the wall.... Stupid right? Haizz... Then I was all woken up by the BANG ! sound from the kitchen when I landed on the floor... I went to the kitchen and saw some erm... pans and stuff on the floor... I don't know why and I don't want to know why so I went to toilet and came out to brush my teeth... Then I sat down and drank my ginseng chicken soup... GINSENG LEHH!! BEAT THAT JAC !! HAHAHA!! Okay... Calm down... HemmHemm! * clears my throat and continues *

Anyway... after that I went to change into my uniform and went off to school... Met Ariel at the bustop... Aw... She looked so cute !! ^^ dot-dot-dot... Never mind me ( again ) then we alight off the bus ... Bla-bla-bla... And I sat down at the assembly place and read my new chinese book... The title is " Embedded in Your Love " ; 《 你的爱情，我在里面 》... I love this book !! So sweet sia... Just like you know?? Who in our class?? You know... No need say ... I know.. I feel the same way...

Anyway... I had THE BEST LITERATURE CLASS EVER... I got this question about what... One of my group members will have to talk to another member about what another friend said behind her back than we act like Jac... Hahazz... Jac look so blur... Anyway... After that went home and saw this ghost email... That scared me till I almost pee... Then I didn't dare to shower till about 8 plus at night ... I warn you people ... If you people see this email title " Read before you look at the picture " ... Please ... If you are brave then see... Not brave then ... Ya... Sorry arh ... Hehezz... Byebyes for now my darlins...

Hi again... Yesterday I think I was a bit drunk... But I didn't drink any alcohol... Anyway... I went to pray for the Qing Ming Festival today... Saw my mother's eldest brother and my second aunt who died because of lung cancer...
As I walked in to the place where all the ashes are and I found the place where my aunt's ashes were ... Looking at her picture, I prayed to her and said that I wish her all the best... I heard from my parents and family members that she was a very humble and caring lady... Its just a pity that now she is gone... All because of cancer... This fucking disease killed so many innocent people... Fuck it up... I hate it when people die without any other GOOD reason... I wasn't even born when she died... I can imagine that day when everybody cried... All those tears dripping down on to the floor.. And when they need to "bring her in"..
I know... People come and go... Just like friends and lovers... If people don't go ... There is not enough room for the new born babies to live in this world... When I die... I will take it as I'm leaving a space for any other baby in this world to live in ... Like a generous young man or lady who gives up her seat on the train or the bus for an old lady or an old man...
I was also suppose to go and buy my specs today but too bad... My dad forgotten all about it and brought my brother to the Polyclinic to see his leg... I really suspect whether his leg is really hurt or not... The way he say it and the way that he just doesn't know anything seems to me like he is faking but I can't judge that in front of him as that is my own opinion...
Suddenly want to talk about my brother... My brother has a very bright future in front of him... I know... Because its obvious... And the course that he is studying , which is IT ; Game Creating , can bring him to the Disney headquarters to invent games for us to play... Plus... He is learning Japanese now so he could go to Japan to invent more games too... He is also one of the top 15% of students in NYP that has the highest grades... I'm surprised of course... I never really knew my brother was SMART... More of him as FAT... Just like me... Hehezz... But all I know is that... He doesn't treat me like a human...
Anyway, my father also give him what he wants more than what I want... Its quite even now but I still feel like ya... I like music and I want to learn that and my brother needs to learn Japanese and he wants it too... In the end ... Guess who won... Of course its my brother... Mine is like... My father thinks I'm doing it for fun... I don't really want to care anymore... If he doesn't let me learn... More of he doesn't have the $$ to let me learn then I'll find other ways... I hope... I know that its important to my brother but of course I'll feel jealous sometimes as he can learn what he wants to learn... I really envy him... Oh what the heck ... I always envy him... Envy his brain... Envy the way that he got daddy's trust so he could go learn his Japanese.. But one thing... He may got the brains and the knowledge ... But he doesn't have the looks.... HAHA... Just kidding... Anyway.. Is this post a bit too long?? Oh what the heck .. I'll just keep writing till I don't feel like it...
Come to think of it... My dad really looks like he cares about what my brother wants more... But now... I couldn't care less... I have more important things to do... Like finding a way to buy concert tickets !! Or at least go find a job to earn my allowance... Hehezz... Anyway... I feel better now... I'm not sick anymore so I'll be going for a jog and to cycle at Bishan Park tomorrow... Which is .... Sunday... So ya... I need to do more " important things " now...
Bye Byezzzzzzzz.....

Can't sleep now... Feel so energetic after drinking the StarBucks Coffee bought from ShengSiong... Pai Sei... I dunno how to spell ... Hehezzz....
Dunno why but suddenly felt like asking... Does loneliness really change oneself ?? I dunno... But I only know that ... I somehow feel quite lonely these few days... Maybe its because I never see my friends around me... ?? Or it sth else?? I just feel confused... Oh what the heck ... I'm always confused... After my flu suddenly I felt like I became another person.. Like BOOM!! Then a new me... Or sth I dunno... Hahazzz... I feel like laughing at anytime... Like I'm drunk... Then when I think about our little two love birds in our class... I feel like HAHAHA... So cute !! I'm crazy... haha... I really am !!! Hahazzz... So cute isn't it ? When you see this little couple together and they grow closer and closer and even more closer... Hahazz... So cute...
Ya ... I envy them... not jealous but envy them... Suddenly dunno why I feel like I need someone to hug ... Someone to listen to his heartbeat to... When a girl puts her ear at his chest and listens to his heartbeat as he sings a love song for her... Aw... So sweet... But ya.. Too bad.. Either thats gonna happen to me or I'm gonna fuck my dog... Hahazzz... Anyway... Its sweet but it only happens to certain people so Jac ... Don't bring your hopes up too high ... Ahha! Jkjk.. ^^ Anyway...I think I need to go and see a psychologist... My brain is going nuts... I feel like I'm drunk now... I don't know why but if you don't see me on Monday .... Go to the newspaper to find me... I may be on the headline... " Girl dies for no reason " hahazzz... I'm insane !! Hehe... Lots of people want me to die... Including Jac of course... That little thing wanted me dead long ago... Of course I'm not dead... YET... Ahha...!! Now I feel like killing myself but too bad... I can't find my chopper or pen knife anywhere... God saved me again ! Hahazz... If anyone here thinks I'm carzy just tell me... I'll reply... ASAP... Just tagg on my cbox... Now I feel like calling somebody... Maybe Linus ? Hahaz.. That little cute boy must have forgotten me... Or maybe Eugene perhaps?? Hehe.. He couldn't care less... He just treat me like a piece of shit... Who else could I call ?? Zavier would be sleeping like a pig and dreaming about his wife by now... Also another guy that is one of my so-called " brother " ... He is just my good OLD pal... Haha... Pal pal pal... Seng Yeow?? That white bamboo... The pandas in China will love him... Hehezz... Zavier , Seng Yeow , Eugene and Linus are guys that I know... They are ok... I think ... For Eugene... Everyone knows I like him... Zavier and Seng Yeow are another 2 guys in 1E1... Linus is my long-time buddy that "dumped" after he became popular...
Anyway... Now I feel like I better go to sleep before I wake up and realise what I'm writing on my blog is a piece of shit... Hahazz... Byez !! Happy dreaming !!

... Feeling very sick today... Thought I could have felt better but now... I can't even talk much .... Hope after I ate my medicine I'll feel better... Today was actually the day that I should go for the sports day ... Sorry Ariel , Abigial , Xuefen , PeiQi , Claudia , JiaMei and Charmaine Liu... I really can't make it... Hope you guys will be able to win the compeitition... ^^
Anyways... Now I'm in my room... And I just callede Ariel and Geraldine... Sorry Geraldine... Can't go to the sports day with you... Hey... I'm getting you something for your birthday so ya... I know its abit too early but ... I'm giving you 2 presents !! One on monday and one on the exact day... And Ariel... Sorry but I can't remember you b-day but I'll give you somthing when I know when ... Hehezz... Suddenly feel like Santa Claus like keep giving out presents... Hahazzz... Anyway... And Pai Sei arh Samartha...I have to give you your b-day present 6 MONTHS after your b-day... But not to worry... We'll be going out to choose your present right ? But can dun choose so ex one?? Hehezz..
Anyway, now I wanna do homework liao... bbzzz....

... Hi again... Walao... Today I go watch movie... The unborn... Very scary sia... I was screaming through out the movie... Damn it... Then me and Smaratha listen to Luo Zhi Xiang song in the movie... Diaozzz... I was laughing also... Like the song and the movie dun fit together lorh.... Like BOOM BOOM and then ARH !!! hahazz...
Anyway, all abt Steph and Zavier... Bla Bla Bla... Okay... Now I dun even dare to shower... OMG... The movie the actress so chio sia... But the kid was scaring me... Anyway... I very sian now... I went shopping with Samartha they all and then Steph left us so we went to the water thingy at AMK hub near the New York New York to chat abt crap... Then Samartha kept laughing at a " elephant " ... Me and Zavier started laughing after we knew... Then we talk abt some other stuff... Zavier was gonna cry in the movie but luckly got Steph to " protect him " ... hahazz... Wish them good luck!! Hehezz... So sweet... Anyway... Now I wait until my father come back then I shower... Really... I cannot take it... Its like you really feel sth but nth is happening... Anyway... Though I kinda know that the real ones aren't THAT scary but I'm still scared... Anyway... I just want to calm down and listen to my Luo Zhi Xiang songz now... bbzzz..