Hi again... Yesterday I think I was a bit drunk... But I didn't drink any alcohol... Anyway... I went to pray for the Qing Ming Festival today... Saw my mother's eldest brother and my second aunt who died because of lung cancer...
As I walked in to the place where all the ashes are and I found the place where my aunt's ashes were ... Looking at her picture, I prayed to her and said that I wish her all the best... I heard from my parents and family members that she was a very humble and caring lady... Its just a pity that now she is gone... All because of cancer... This fucking disease killed so many innocent people... Fuck it up... I hate it when people die without any other GOOD reason... I wasn't even born when she died... I can imagine that day when everybody cried... All those tears dripping down on to the floor.. And when they need to "bring her in"..
I know... People come and go... Just like friends and lovers... If people don't go ... There is not enough room for the new born babies to live in this world... When I die... I will take it as I'm leaving a space for any other baby in this world to live in ... Like a generous young man or lady who gives up her seat on the train or the bus for an old lady or an old man...
I was also suppose to go and buy my specs today but too bad... My dad forgotten all about it and brought my brother to the Polyclinic to see his leg... I really suspect whether his leg is really hurt or not... The way he say it and the way that he just doesn't know anything seems to me like he is faking but I can't judge that in front of him as that is my own opinion...
Suddenly want to talk about my brother... My brother has a very bright future in front of him... I know... Because its obvious... And the course that he is studying , which is IT ; Game Creating , can bring him to the Disney headquarters to invent games for us to play... Plus... He is learning Japanese now so he could go to Japan to invent more games too... He is also one of the top 15% of students in NYP that has the highest grades... I'm surprised of course... I never really knew my brother was SMART... More of him as FAT... Just like me... Hehezz... But all I know is that... He doesn't treat me like a human...
Anyway, my father also give him what he wants more than what I want... Its quite even now but I still feel like ya... I like music and I want to learn that and my brother needs to learn Japanese and he wants it too... In the end ... Guess who won... Of course its my brother... Mine is like... My father thinks I'm doing it for fun... I don't really want to care anymore... If he doesn't let me learn... More of he doesn't have the $$ to let me learn then I'll find other ways... I hope... I know that its important to my brother but of course I'll feel jealous sometimes as he can learn what he wants to learn... I really envy him... Oh what the heck ... I always envy him... Envy his brain... Envy the way that he got daddy's trust so he could go learn his Japanese.. But one thing... He may got the brains and the knowledge ... But he doesn't have the looks.... HAHA... Just kidding... Anyway.. Is this post a bit too long?? Oh what the heck .. I'll just keep writing till I don't feel like it...
Come to think of it... My dad really looks like he cares about what my brother wants more... But now... I couldn't care less... I have more important things to do... Like finding a way to buy concert tickets !! Or at least go find a job to earn my allowance... Hehezz... Anyway... I feel better now... I'm not sick anymore so I'll be going for a jog and to cycle at Bishan Park tomorrow... Which is .... Sunday... So ya... I need to do more " important things " now...
Bye Byezzzzzzzz.....