Friends

There are lots of things I can say about friends, no matter if it's what you don't do or what you should do. Cause' there are lots of way to classify friends. Maybe the word "friend" itself is a strong word for you that you can't let just anyone have that title. Maybe "friend" to you can be just a random person on the street. Or maybe, "friend" to you doesn't exist anymore and you think everybody is just human that happens to make the world go round and you're surviving on your own. Well, I'm one of those people, and was one of the other two. As you grow up, you realise who are friends and what are friends. Mostly, people get disappointed cause' the BFFs forever they see on the Disney Channel doesn't really exist. Others may be lucky and find a real bestfriend. Some of them even turn out to be their partners for life, while the others realise the true colours of their "bestfriend" and leaves them with a gayish waving goodbye.
Well, I've learnt something from all this. At first I was thinking I can be anybody's friend, as long as I'm happy and everyone else is happy, I'm fine with it. As I grew up, I see even the quietest girl around me can turn out to be someone really unexpected. Till now, frankly, I still hate her, and she does too. I mean seriously, thise kind of stuff, I won't forgive and forget, really. And then I realise I'm surviving on my own, no friends, just classmates that just happen to make lots of noise during every class of the day. Then I met my clique now, Kurt and Sam, then I learnt from the past that I can't just let anybody be my friends, or I'll be betrayed or something ya'know? Then as days past, tell you the truth, their text every morning really surprised me. Though I know all along, I'll never be as close to them as they are together, but well, it made a difference seeing their messages every morning. Then fights come along, and I learn to just stay on the side or sit on the fence cause' frankly, I have no idea what to do. You stand here and the other gets angry, you stand there and the other is miserable. Then when the fight ends, everything comes back to normal. Then you're, again, behind everything and just tag along wherever they go. Some may call me a dog for doing that but I didn't give a shit. Then I came to church, and that's where my breakthrough came. Next I was spending so much time with my church friends that I just don't hang out with Kurt and Sam much. They told me about it but well, I was just thinking I needed to be happy and that happens when I'm in church or around with people from there. They were unhappy about it at first then it sort of worked out. Then I learnt that you can be anyone's friend, but not much people can be your real friends. Sometimes, it doesn't need to be all good people, some are good and some are bad, while the rest are both. Sometimes, it's okay to just laugh and not make things complicated and just let things go smoothly. We don't need everyone to be real true friends cause' they can't be. Like love, we need to wait for the right one. The one that truly understands you and believes in you as much as you believe in him/her. Someone that can not only cry to but cry together with. Someone that not only you talk to but you listen to. That's to me, a friend I can always rely on.
For now, I'm still searching, cause' I believe this kind of thing ain't forever. Who knows? Maybe after this year the clique splits, or when the cellgroup multiply we won't talk much to each other anymore? Anything can happen. Anything. So to everyone who cared to read this, all I can say is that friends come in different kinds, like a puzzle piece, and you'll find one that fits right next to you. (: